thoughts out loud ..

Today is a day of coincidence... Went for a photoshoot in the morning, met a TPJC SSC junior who is applying for a bursary from MOE. Long time no see, and thru him, i got to know of the bursary and the last day of application was actually last Friday.
So i requested forms from the nice lady in charge, and she was like.... 'is this your 1st time applying?' and i answered cheekily 'Yes! Unfortuately, we are in our final year.....can claim for the past 3 years?'
Not surprisingly, the answer was 'no'. But .. at least i could get it for this year. heh! Told everyone i see along the way, think Uncle Teng, Roy and dunno who will be applying. Its free money anyway.

My thoughts... dunno why tonight my thoughts are about thinking about my relationship, my major choices in life so far. What would it have been if i chosen a different path instead. I guess most people would at some point in time, reflect about such things.
Nope. I'm not sad nor depressed... more like, analysing and wondering the 'what ifs'. And the biggest one would be... if i am not around anymore, what would life be like for the people around me? my family and friends, they all would have moved on and life will be as usual by now, 1.5 years later.
I guess people come and go, different friends stay in your life during different periods of your lifetime. Some come and go, some become long friends, some drops by very occasionally .. and those who passes away, gives a chance for others to meet up... hmm.. weddings also give people a chance to meet up ba. =P except one is in happiness and the other in 'rememberance' (dunno the spelling, lazy to cut and paste in word to check).
Many friends are asking on whens my wedding..... despite being the longest running relationship among my friends so far (> 10 years), i would probably be the last to tie the knot. David already proposed to Fen and they are happliy house hunting now (2nd longest running @ abt 9 yrs). Xiaoming and CBT would be up next, probably in 2008 is my guess.
Due to unique cicumstances (ironic as everyone's situation is unique =P), cant make much plans for the future, so like kind of stagnant ba. Although i am living in the now, a plan for what i want to do in the next 5 years etc etc, i can't have anything planned for us in the future. Hiaz.... would this be a severe problem in the future? i dont know.... as they say, only time will tell. =p