Departures....

Recently obtained news of a departure of someone in NTU Dragonboating of 06 batch from Butler's msn nick. Visited the blog set up for people to place thoughts and memories of him just a few days ago. Although i realised that i didn't know him personally, felt a bit sad that he has passed on at a relatively young age.

Then yesterday read the news of 5 Singaporean dragonboaters who went missing after the boat capsized. Then met yongxi and got to know that we know one of them personally, as a matter of fact, yongxi just had lunch with 'ba gey' last Monday. Double confirmed that when we read the front cover of 晚報 in the late afternoon.

40 hours and still not found, i really hope that they have drifted down the river and are rescued by some fishermen or villagers downstream, but they have not contacted the authorities yet. Looking at them activating the divers, my heart sinks. Just like the RSS Courageous incident years back.

Somehow, the news of the death of someone i know doesn't seem to affect me that much already. During my close brush with death, I got to know quite a number of fellow cancer patients, survivors and volunteers. As chemo was on a fixed schedule, i get to see the same people every time i went back for treatment, then after a while, they stopped coming. So sometimes i ask the nurses if they had recovered, some yes, some no. Also know of a few who are terminally ill, and are only on painkillers and fighting on with their positive spirits.

So to date, quite a number of people i know or came in contact with had passed on, but i realised that i should concentrate on the living. To feel sadness and keep them alive in my memory (thats why i am wearing my grandmother's ring constantly, for she had given me strength to fight on even after she had passed away), but i will move on with life, to help as many people, not only cancer survivors, as possible. A sad reminder to live life to the fullest at every single moment.

I pray for a miracle that somehow, they will be found downstream, injured but alive. And to get a second chance in life.