Came back early from school yesterday as i was feeling unwell. Somehow felt my body getting tired over fighting some bugs, probably cold or flu virus. Reached home about 5.30 pm and started feeling feverish. Thank goodness i 'listened' to my body and headed back to rest. After having early dinner, went to sleep with 2 panadol pills in my stomach as my temperature reached 37.8.
Started to feel weak through the night as my immune system fought back, and woke up several times in the night, and i took another 2 pills around 3~4 o'clock in the morning. Strangely, for the moments that i was awake, i reflected back to the times when i was undergoing chemotherapy and was having fever. Back then, i felt a lot worse with constant perspiration (change of clothes every hour as it got soaked) and pain too. Amazing how the mind can 'forget' such terrible experiences and i get to recall them when i am in a similar situation, abeit a much better situation. In a sense, felt very much alive as my body ached and complained. Without darkness, there is no light, without the suffering of being sick, one forgets the joy of being healthy. Not that i want everyone to be sick though. =P I wish everyone to be healthy and happy, with some small short bouts of minor illness once in a while to boost their immune systems. heh.
Just had dinner, now perspiring (yeah!) as i take it as a sign that my fever is breaking for now. Cos my temperature still rises intermittently. =P I spent the day, mainly in bed, sometimes at the computer terminal and sadly, no PS2 for me as i left it at Wheng's place. Doh! Hope i get well by tomorrow, then can head down to NTU to work on the solar car.
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Seng, you know ah, sometimes when I'm sitting down in places where the aircon is very cold (especially the chemo clinic when I do my routine checkups), it would send shivers up my spine when I thought of the needles poking into my hand, the coldness of the drugs flowing through and me shivering because it was too cold even when I had a jacket and 2 blankets on...
Sometimes I even think how come last time I can tahan the pains, fevers, the cold... Haha...
i can still remember the cold influx of the liquid drugs going in, unfortunately, the 2 different types of anti-vomiting drugs that they administered before the chemo drugs had no effect on me. So i get to 'forget' about the cold cos i will be constantly vomiting or retching for that 2 hours or so. =P
Looking back, definitely think that it is incredibly insane for me to undergo such torture repeatedly. =P I guess bravery is something one does without thought at the moment in time.
Thats why you are a brave one too! =)
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